My Life, My Love, My Future

• Last Thursday night…fell down to the drain and being sent to the hospital by my colleague…
• Owner suddenly cut off the telephone line and streamyx without prior notice…
• Moved to a new place…costing me RM650 monthly rental…the initial rental and utilities deposits cost me more than RM2K… Why I chose to stay there? It should be the cheapest and yet nearest to my work place and most comfortable among the rest, I supposed.
• Visited my colleague in the hospital but accidentally met someone that I don’t like to meet.
• About my work? Suddenly lose confident on a specific area and no mood to work. Many people leaving the company…this is the only company that I have chance to see people leaving it before me.

What’s wrong with me recently? What sign is this? Another tsunami is coming to visit me again? There is always a shinny day after the storm, but there is also a storm after the shinny day. However, the storm by itself never told people it is bad; likewise, the shinny day by itself never told people it is good either. We just can’t expect no snakes or other wild animals encounter while continuously living in the deep jungle. The question is, why chose to live in the jungle anyway? The answer is simple: Because somebody built the jungle and I was being sent to this jungle to tell the people that they are actually created a self-destructive environment that eventually will not bring any good to the human kind. While carrying such mission in the jungle, you just can’t prevent yourself from being bitten by the snakes — this is the only place where you can stay in touch with the human. In Buddhism, there is a quote: If I don’t visit the hell, who else willing to?