Today, I received another order notification from Avangate. Sometimes I ask myself: What kind of person am I in the eyes of others? To my family members, I’m a loser; to certain people, I’m a smart guy; to another group of people, I’m over selling myself and more other kinds of perception towards me. So, who am I?
There was a time, I told one of my friends that, my biggest failure in life will be unable to contribute a single cent to my mother’s funeral in case one day she really left me… What confuse my family members the most is: Why can’t I just work for a company for long term, like anybody else? Why I have to keep changing jobs? What am I after anyway? For many years, I have been suffered with debts…hunger…and pain…Why I never afraid of all these past experiences? Why?
Sometimes I ask myself: Should a man live for someone? Should a man control how he should live? Should a man work for nobody except himself? For a man to live, he needs money. In order to have money, he sold himself by doing something that he doesn’t like to do or not a right thing to do. In other words, to live, he chooses not to live because of money. He strives to earn all the money just to defeat his purpose of living. So, why do you want to keep yourself alive anyway?
Mother…please forgive a useless son like me…I’m sorry…
Dear senior,
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Clearly you are demonstrating traits of an Idealist… plus Genius (even though some says genius is close to insanity
This morning I came across two quotations about work and life. Perhaps they may mean sth to you. Enjoy…
“You can only become truly accomplished at something you love. Don’t make money your goal. Instead, pursue the things you LOVE doing, and then do them so well that people can’t take their eyes off you.”
~Maya Angelou, poet, writer, speaker
“Obviously everyone wants to be successful, but I want to be looked back on as being very innovate, very trusted and ethical and ultimately making a big difference in the world.”
~Sergey Brin, Google, co-founder
Well…to me…the more one not being ordered by himself to do something, the more insane he becomes…(the body not work according to what his brain is desired). When I was 16, I wrote an article in Chinese, explaining about how human beings define “NORMAL” or “TRUTH” based on the majority. If 90% of the human beings see an object as BLUE color, then the 10% are considered abnormal (suffer with color blind). However, bear in mind that the so call “majority” could be just a “minority” in the entire Universe.
What I mean is, when more and more people become abnormal, those normal people will be treated as abnormal.
Interesting thougt! Since I do not suffer with color blind, it makes me start to wonder whether I’m normal or abnormal?
haha…try not to go against your will whenever possible and u shd be normal
I know it may be hard in order to survive in the current world, but try to protect ur good will if the result does not cause u a great impact in ur survival.
This is one of the reasons why person like me can’t form a family because I can screw up my family life at any time due to this…