May 2008, I had made the most foolish decision that I had ever made in my life — rejected something that I want, accepted something that I do not want. While at the cross-road of making this decision, I only need to choose between credibility and the company that I preferred. I wonder how much that credibility means to me. The company that I preferred keep giving me chances, again and again, I rejected them simply because I have accepted the other’s offer (but the truth is, I had not signed the offer letter, just verbally accepted). Until now, I still wondering what pushed me to make that decision… Was it really because of credibility sake?
From March 2008 until May 2008, I have worked for total 3 companies — 1 month 1 company, and I don’t think I should make it to 4. I keep asking myself, again and again, what am I looking for? If the thing that I desired is the one that leads me to this circumstance, should I give it up to stop this circumstance or keep finding it until I have found it and hence stop this circumstance? Before having this company of my choice as my last employer in life, should I give up? If I give up, means I no longer expect anything from my job, from my company — just keep working and getting myself paid, that’s all. Can I do that? I think I should. May that company be my real hope in life, let me miss my greatest job achievement in life…let it go…someone got to miss something in life regardless of how significant it is…let it be…let it be…
