My Life, My Love, My Future

We always thinking of owning something that we dream of, but usually, when we own it, that particular thing turns up become the cause of our problems — especially when losing it. Apparently, we won’t lose something that we never owned. So, here comes an interesting question: Why must we "own" something, which we never have it since the day we born?

For instance, during the first day when we were born, do we have money? Of course, we don’t, but why are we feeling upset when we lost our money? I think the only reason that make sense is that, because we have paid out the effort in exchanging for the money that we need for our daily survivor. Theoretically speaking, his complies to the "equal trade" principle of living, which is fair. The logic behind is simple: before you start your first job and receive your first salary, you pay out for your studies, putting in efforts to gain necessary knowledge for your future profession and so on. However, when this involves the mixture of countable and uncountable effort, tangible and intangible investments, who determine the amount of returns that we should get? Based on what to measure? Although nobody knows the answer, the thing "equal trade" does exists — I believe.

One month ago, I lost RM1,000 when withdrawing it from Maybank’s ATM machine using my Public Bank ATM card. The balance had been deducted but the money wasn’t being dispensed from the machine. I was very frustrated and upset. I made a report to both Maybank and Public Bank. Until today, no news from both of these banks. After some times, I asked myself: Is it because this RM1,000 not supposed to belong to me? The same goes to when losing a woman that I love the most in my life.

Often, while we keep fighting for our own rights to get something back from someone, legally speaking, and also based on own dissatisfactory, we should. But through the principle of "equal trade" in life, should we? Only the nature knows about it. This is like the water flow from the higher land to the lower land when it loses out its balancing…and when this happens, does the water care about why it is flowing downwards? Can we behave like water while we are also an element of the earth?