Doubtful decision but feeling better
July 3, 2006 by antoniooi
Tonight, I chatted with someone again — a gal who can make me drunk without alcohol. Yes, I drunk again. Don’t know what was the reason, I keep hinting her about my true feeling by using the words "her" and "she"… Showing my jealousy as well… But everytime when I tell her that I feel jealous on something that she did, she will cheer me up by telling me that she was actually went out with a girl.
Tonight, she is going out with friends again. She told me that she is going to change cloth to get herself ready for the outing. Before she left, I sent her my last message: "Don’t wear too sexy ok?" "Ok, I won’t." She answered me. Again, she made me shock. Who am I? Asking her not to wear sexy? But… the answer she gave to me…
Out of the sudden, something that have been bugging me quite seriously recently came into my mind — Shall I leave? What about my friends? What about my studies? But, after chatting with her tonight, it seems like giving me another one more important reason to stay — I will lose her if I leave.
Well… I always believe the power of love. It tends to make something impossible possible. It tends to create miracles. I also believe good things always come with higher price. Even though I couldn’t get her, I may be able to succeed in my career and studies, who knows? And after I succeeded in my career and studies, I got her back, who knows?
Angel: Hey Antonio! Some god damn evils in your mind again?! Stop dreaming and GET BACK TO WORK!!!
Antonio: Yes Sir! 
