My Life, My Love, My Future

A movie that full of blood… lies… betrayal… loves… and tears… My friend asked me why I was so into the movie until it makes my tears fall down… I said I thought of the moment when my father was being killed… I can understand the male character’s feeling…if you witness your parents being killed…lying on the road and full of blood on his body…you should be able to understand the character’s feeling…if you have seen some of your very closed relatives cheated your family for money and for your parent’s life…you should be able to sense the character’s feeling…Such movies had no longer been a movie to me since I was 14 — the are real.

Yes, this world is cruel, but as a human in this world, doesn’t mean we have to be cruel too. If cruelty is a very unpleasant thing, why practice it or use it as a revenge on someone who is innocent? Shall I kill the murderers’ dad too? How about the rest of their family members? What would possibly be happened to the rest of my family members then? A real man will never fear about death, but he fears about the consequences that he might bring to the people that he loves due to his action.

I may not be able to help someone to solve his/her problems, but I won’t ignore the unfortunate things happening to someone that I know, especially those that I think he/she is innocent. At the end, the problems might not be able to solved, or I may generate more troubles to myself, but at least, I can tell myself that: "Antonio, you have done what you suppose to do."

Of course, there are people that never appreciate your help. In that case, what we can only do is to pray for them. If they managed to get through of it, we are happy for them. If they can’t, then I can only close my eyes and say: "This is the world…"