My Life, My Love, My Future

Get to know a girl recently. Not considered pretty but make me feel comfortable while looking at her. Intelligent — this is what a girl can attract me the most. She used to write long emails to me. That really shows her sincerity for being a friend. I really get attracted to what she has done…impressed me so much…

But after awhile, I feel that this doesn’t mean she is interested in me. May be I was abit too rush. Don’t know why I was rushing, but that was really scared her away. May be by fate, she is not the one for me. We have some miscommunications also sometimes. One too care, the other doesn’t like the way. Abit similar to my ex. She looks taller than me also, although I never mind about the height of my partner.

Well…may be I should give up. Can’t afford to make myself sad again at this moment. Got work to do. Got course to study. Got freelance project to finish. But still feel the emptiness…I am a guy who can’t live without love, this one I admit. But that doesn’t mean I blindly choose and never care about the suitability and quality of that girl. As mentioned in my previous blog, I do have a girl who admires me so much. Even until now, she is willing to give me anything just to make me happy, but still being rejected by me. She is not ugly. Very fair and came from rich family background. But don’t know why, I just don’t have feeling on her no matter how much effort she put in.

But about that intelligent girl that I mentioned earlier in this blog, I can’t afford to get hurt again. May be I should leave her alone and stop asking anything from her again. I will try not to email her or send instant message to her until she initiates it. Otherwise I really can scare her away. Let everything goes naturally. If she is not the one, she is not the one.